True Peace......

It's been awhile since I've blogged about any and everything. Mostly because I was comtemplating on what I should blog about. Should I talk about the ups and downs of 2010? Or should I talk about what's to come in 2011? I guess I just kept putting it off and never did either. To say the least.....2010 was filled with joy and laughter, tears and disappointment. But what did I learn the most about in 2010?? God was the same in the joy and laughter just as he was in the tears and the sorrow. He NEVER changes. We change. People, places, and things change but God never does. When you are having the time of your life, God is right there with you...sharing in the joy and happiness you feel. He's clapping his hands and rejoicing with you. When you are sad and filled with sorrow, God is right there wiping away your tears, holding you in his arms, loving on you more than you ever thought he could. This is what I learned. What else did I learn? True peace can only come from God. Many times and in many situations, I tell myself that I feel such a peace. But still, there is a little part in me that has doubt and worry. But in 2010 I finally learned about true peace. In June we had a miscarriage. We thought we were 10 weeks pregnant but when I went for our first ultrasound the dr. didn't find anything. I had thought about this moment many times b/c let's face it, being pregnant is scary. However, as many times as I thought about it, I didn't think it was going to happen to me. I remember the tears and sadness I felt that whole day. That night as I went to bed I prayed. God, you have to help me understand and only you can give me a peace that can make me understand. That night I slept a peaceful sleep. And from then on......I felt the true peace of God. Yes, I was sad and yes I wish we were pregnant but I was ok. I knew that God knew what he was doing. I knew he had protected me and protected that baby from something happening later on down the line. I didn't spend my days saddened and angry. I spent my days rejoicing and in thanksgiving. Thanking God that he had given me a peace that transcended all understanding. And that peace, is what I will hold on to in 2011. In the good times and the bad, I want to remember that peace I felt at that moment in my life and cling to it, holding on to God's unchanging hand. I hope this is an encouragement to you. Hold on to God, He's the only thing that will never change. Circumstances may change, some for the good, some for the bad.....but one things for sure.....He's a God who holds our tomorrow!!!

So here's to a great year. Ready to face anything. A great husband and the sweetest little boy, God by our side....we can do this! And yesterday was one of those great days. We had our first snowday of 2011. Playing in the snow was always a big part of my growing up. Every winter we had snow and every winter that's where you would find us. Out in the snow drifts, making snowmen, jumping off the ladder in to the snow, riding the 4-wheeler and spinning hookers......those were the good days. And now, I'm having some good days with my family. Malachi enjoyed it much more than he did last year. Probably because he wasn't so bundled up that he couldn't move. :) He certainly didn't want to come in but the wind was blowing way to hard and well, I was getting cold myself.